from this blog, atleast.
perhaps because i have been feeling that i am too “alive” on the internet. i am beginning to wonder just how much information i want about myself floating around this traceable world. i know, a little late for that, bekah.
primarily, i’ve been thinking this about my “real life,” specifically job hunting. why am i so honest with everybody? this is probably why i have not been able to get a job. . . .once i open my big, fat mouth and explain how it is that i came to tacoma and [what it is my husband does for a living], my chances of getting that job are probably now ZERO (zero percent? zero in 1,000?? whatever.).
how about being vague for once in my life? ”i moved here for personal reasons.” ”i’ve always wanted to live in the northwest.” something stupid like that. and how about not even mentioning that i am even married? hmmm….applying as a “MS.” instead of a “MRS.” may make a world of difference. [and i now fully understand why there is such a thing as a "ms," and not just "miss" or "mrs"]
we’ll see. maybe i’m just getting too flustered at the fact that i have unknowingly put myself in a restrictive box (“are you a teacher or a nurse?”). what if i am not cut out for those things? it’s true, i’m certainly not “cut out” for either of those things. listening to me tell a story or instruct someone on how to do something is like listening that peanuts character (what’s his name?). mwamwama. i faint at the sight of blood, so that instantly disqualifies me for a profession like nursing. GRR.
/end of rant.
on to happier/different things…
we are doing well. ben came home early from this last trip (yay!), so we are finally making it out to see TROPIC THUNDER.
if we’re lucky, we’ll get to see the new cohen brother’s movie this weekend as well.
yesterday i came home to a dog who was unable to use her back legs. she just collapsed on the floor several times and at one point i had to carry her up the stairs (one stair at a time…she is freaking 65 lbs). finally get her to the ER and the vet tells me that she either has “coon hound disease,” which they get from raccoon saliva (RANDOM?!)…it causes them to be paralyzed from the back legs on forward. no cure, they just eventually become completely paralyzed. OR…she had a herniated disc in her spine. more likely. this dog likes to jump really high in the air and she plays rough with rowan. however, to get an MRI to verify that it is a herniated disc, i was asked to fork over $300. NO, i didn’t do it. because i learned that the surgery to correct this is a mere $6,000. no way that is going to happen, so i figured that regardless of the diagnosis, we were just going to buy her some painkillers and go home.
good thing i did, because this morning she was her normal, perky self. :) so far, so good. she seems a little lethargic, but nothing terrible like yesterday.
thanks to everyone who called/texted me yesterday
i miss you guys.















